Certainties Of Life

Death is one of the certainties of life that cannot be avoided no matter how hard you try and no matter what precautions you take. A friend of mine told me one time that when you get to be middle age, life becomes more about loss and how you deal with loss than it is anything. The positives of life at middle age are few and far between. A very close family member is facing a life and death surgery next week and I am afraid. Very afraid. There is no way that you can prepare yourself for the outcome, good or bad. I try to take a humorous look at my life but nothing that has happened to me in 2019 has been funny and there is no humor in it at all. Now, me and my family are facing the toughest test of them all. All I can do now is allow the universe to do its thing and I will have to accept the verdict.

Numbers

Numbers make sense to me. People don't. Most days I feel like the character Sheldon Cooper on The Big Bang Theory. Numbers I can deal with but people I am having a harder time with. I cannot understand how people can be so vindictive and vengeful when whatever they are seeking to accomplish will mean absolutely nothing in the end.

Death Of A Friend

I had to say goodbye to an old friend the other day and I can only hope that I was as good of a friend to you as you were to me. I made many mistakes along the way and I hope you forgave me as I was able to forgive you. I was always in your corner and stood behind you when you may not have even known I was there. I will miss you old friend and I have shed many tears and I will shed many more every time I think of you and the good times we had. They will be tears of joy thinking about me and you and tears of sadness because you are no longer here. You were gone way too soon as we had many more years to go. I loved you as only one friend can love another and I hope you loved me too. Goodbye old friend, I will see you on the other side as my time is drawing near.